Sinful
a Poem by Raquel Swann
It’s sinful how you touch me
without lifting a finger.
It’s sinful how you linger in my mind
When you’re miles away.
It’s sinful how I smile
With just a mere thought of you.
Who are you?
Where did you come from?
Why am I so lost?
It’s shameful how I hide you
Away from the world.
It’s shameful how I suppress you
Behind my desperate eyes.
It’s shameful how I don’t allow you
To be who you are.
Why do I feel this way?
When will I learn?
What can I do?
One day you will emerge
What will they think?
One day you will find success
Will it make a difference?
One day you will be happy
And I will be gone.
The shell that contains you.
The vessel that enslaves you.
The scared child who is afraid of you.
There is but one life to live
And I can’t live both.