Can’t Turn to You

a Poem by Raquel Swann

I could easily turn to drugs

For comfort

In temporary moments of euphoria,

Perhaps I’ll find truth and peace.

I could turn to alcohol,

Numbing my pain briefly,

Only to return worse

Than before.

I could turn to writing,

Jotting down my emotions for all

To misinterpret.

I could turn to social media,

A few likes send chills down my spine,

And dopamine through my veins,

Until the next Viral video

Takes over.

But I can’t, I just can’t

Turn to you,

Because you’re not there any more,

Absent of mind, body, and soul

Whilst I sit here alone,

Hoping, praying

You’re thinking of me,

If even for a second.