Transmute
a Poem by Raquel Swann
I toiled,
And tolerated,
Protecting me from me.
I was so afraid of the outcome.
I danced,
And skated,
Around the feelings in my heart.
Worried about them.
I jested,
And mocked,
People like me for being themselves.
Painted green for decades.
I ran,
And sprinted,
Away from conversations.
Warding off hands reaching for answers.
I can’t tell you when
The chemistry changed.
Thoughts are the same,
Processed through a funnel
Of truth and acceptance.
With a pill on my tongue,
Watch me as I swallow it
with Pride and hope
For a new beginning.